I really need to come clean to the people in my life about my blog. I mean, I’ve always written as if everyone I know is reading – or at least like there’s a possibility they could be. It just still seems like such a strange thing – when I started blogging at thirteen, writing about your life on the internet was, well, weird. It was something no one else in my life did, and not only was it something I felt a little embarrassed about, it was also a place I could go and vent about my life without anyone I knew reading.
But now? Blogs are everywhere. No one who knows anything is under the impression that the internet is private. I just don’t know exactly how to bring it up.
I want to be a more active blogger. I don’t necessarily want to start sharing my posts on Facebook, but I’d love to link my Twitter to my blog. I’d love to be able to keep far-away friends updated on my life through my blog. I’d love to be able to share it with real-life friends who may be interested (particularly the new BRCA friends I’m meeting). I’d love to be able to run post ideas by my boyfriend or grab the laptop and write a few posts while we’re lazily watching crappy TV on a Sunday morning.
I don’t want to feel like it’s this dirty little secret. It just seems incredibly awkward to bring up out of nowhere. And it is still something I’d prefer not to share with my parents. I’d still prefer my coworkers not read it, but that’s more because I just envision them reading it in the same office as me, right in front of me, and secretly thinking I’m ridiculous. That’s what really scares me: the idea that people could read my blog and laugh at me or talk amongst themselves about how ridiculous I am for thinking I should write publicly – or for being such a nerd as to have a blog to begin with. And I don’t want prospective employers to come across it, either, and judge me by my genetic status or anxiety or anything else I may share here. I don’t want to deal with people who just don’t get the internet like I (and all of us in blog land) do.
On Friday, I’m going to happy hour with a friend of Kori’s. We connected via a Facebook group for a Meetup.com group we’re both part of (but that I’ve barely participated in… oops). She asked how I know Kori and after a few days I responded with, basically, “Uhh… the internet.” I think I’d tell her about my blog if it came up. Maybe it’s just something I should share with new people and wait until it comes up with everyone else?
So I don’t know. I’m curious as to others have handled this in their own lives and what your experiences have been like. I know I can’t be the only one!