Someone – possibly multiple someones – recently found my blog by searching “losing weight sucks.” Yep, it does. I’m the first to admit that.
As you know, I signed up for the Ten Pound Challenge a month ago. And since then, I’ve lost… no weight. Yep.
I have been trying, which is the most frustrating thing. The first week was iffy, then I went to Vegas and thought I lost a pound by walking everywhere and not snacking, which gave me a lot of encouragement. Since I’ve been back, I’ve been on Weight Watchers. I will admit I have not done perfectly; sometimes I went just over my points for the week, which is obviously bad. But you would think that since I’m still eating so much less than usual – and since they just lowered my points from a higher amount on which I previously lost weight – I’d have some success. And I haven’t. I thought it might be water weight and then I thought it might be due to the time of the month (sometimes being a girl really sucks) but so far, no change.
My boyfriend has asked a couple times if I’ve lost weight, but I can’t help but think he just says it to make me feel good. My mom commented on it as well, asking last time I saw her if I’ve lost a few pounds. I was wearing loose pants, though, so that may have been the reason. I don’t feel like my body is any different and it is really discouraging.
If I would stay the same weight by eating like I normally do and I’ll stay the same weight by eating less, then why would I stress myself out by dieting? If it’s not going to make a difference, why bother? I’m proud of myself for not just giving in and gorging on everything in the world, but I’m also not very motivated to try anymore. I can’t get motivated to exercise because I’m busy and I’m tired and I don’t want to be sweaty, and if nothing seems to make a difference anyway, what is the point?
I’m just being real. I don’t know why I’m not losing weight and I don’t know what I’m going to do about it, if anything. I don’t want to seem like a negative Nancy, but the fact is? Losing weight does suck. So whoever out there is finding my blog when searching that term – I’m right there with you.
The good news? I took my measurements the other day and while I do not fit the standards for the “ideal” woman (24-inch waist? really?), I do pass the U.S. Army standards for healthy body fat percentage and height/weight ratio. That counts for something, I guess!